Hiatus

Yes, I have been on a hiatus. I have not written in awhile. I have been reading a lot and soul searching and homeschooling and doing the baseball thing and cleaning out my house. I enjoy every one of those and yes, I am that person that every now and then… needs a hiatus. I just take more time to myself and in my world, as some might say. Not everyone understands, and I am good with that, because I do not understand many things that people do, and I am good with that. I love that we all do our own things. We should all be ok with that.

Reading grounds me and opens me up to so many thoughts and ideas, which I just love. Homeschooling does the same. It is challenging and grounding and uplifting all at the same time, which is just amazing. It is also time consuming, which is a constant adjustment, in order to fit the rest of life in some time. The baseball thing gets us out there, out in the world of all kinds of people and challenges. I love the sport. I love that these kids are brave enough to get out there on that field and try their best in front of all these crazy, screaming parents. I do not think we mean to be crazy, screaming parents, but we are. We want to encourage and show them that we are all in to their game. I do love watching these kids play. But sometimes, I can do without the screaming parents, who seem to think we are in the World Series on a Saturday afternoon in the middle of our little town. Then there is cleaning out my house. Now that is a good way to cleanse, feel like I am getting rid of stuff and usually giving it to someone else. That always, always feels good.

Sometimes we just have to tune out the rest. In order to grow and find peace and just be ok, some of us, not all of us, just need to tune out the rest. It is ok. It is not personal. It is just what our soul needs. We all need different. Some of us need contact and conversation and busyness to get through. That is ok. Some of us need quiet and rest and a little escape to get through. Either is fine. Just find what you need. Really try to find what you need. Sometimes we are not actually doing what our soul needs to recharge. We might think we are.

Take time to find out what you need. I hear so often that when everything slows down….it will get better. When I just get through this season, it will be a little less crazy. Life does not slow down, unless you make it. You have to find a way for life to slow down. You are the one in control of that. Until you take control of that, you will be waiting, and waiting for life to slow down. Some things are a little easier to control. Some are harder. I can hear the thoughts now…I can not change that, or that, or that, or that…or that either. Yes, you can. It might not be easy, but it is possible. It is possible with work from you. In order to find a little less, it is going to be difficult. Some of the busy will be really difficult, but you can make it happen, if…if, you really want to make a change.

I am not saying my changes should be your changes, just that if you feel you need change, do not be afraid to make changes. We have made big and little changes in our life to take out the crazy. I feel like we have made such progress, but there are still weeks where I can not get a hold of the time and I feel I can not get a hold of the crazy. This is just life. It is a constant work in progress, and that is just ok with me. There will never be just a regular old week, or a regular old day for that matter. I have struggled with this. I have had much frustration over this sometimes. I am learning to embrace this. This takes work, but yes I am learning. That is where being in the moment comes in. Stepping back and just being in the moment can change a lot. When we are always thinking of something else, stress comes. When we are rehashing the past, or worrying about the future…we miss the present. It is so easy to rethink about what someone said to you over and over again, wondering what they really meant. It is so easy to feel worry about something that has yet to happen, without even realizing that is what you are doing. Amazingly, it can be challenging but also possible if you really try, to intentionally BE in the moment…the present. These are the moments that bring such calmness to my day. I am not great at this, but I am certainly on a path to intentionally trying to get better at it. I am trying. Every day I am trying. We have to try. I tell my kids to try. Try new things. Try to be better. Try your best. Try to BE IN THE MOMENT.

Today is that day that I am going to try to be in a lot of moments. Leave the stress behind. Leave the worry and wondering behind. Pray as much as possible to be in the moment. I will see what this day brings. Present in life. Present in MY life. My wish today and every day. Let go of the other. Do not let the distractions get to you. Take them in and let them right back out. Pray. Back to your moment.

I wrote THIS over the summer and it goes hand in hand with what I am writing today.

Thank you as always for taking the time to read.

[blockquote size=”full” align=”left” byline=”Matthew 11:28″ rating=”0″]Come to me all of you who are weary and carry heavy burdens and I will give you rest[/blockquote]

I do hope you enjoy today,

Kelley